I have quit my job and in a month I will be jobless and my original plan was to move Minnesota if I didn’t find something in Oklahoma. Well that has all changed because of God he trying to ground me here and I have no idea why. I always looking for a way to change something in my life, like move, different job, going any or everywhere. When I went to church camp as a sponsor this year, God told me that he has different plans for me. He wants me to stay in Oklahoma and work on some of my fears. I have a desire in my heart to actually do something with my life that will make a different in people’s life but I can’t figure out how to make that happen or what that is actually. I always felt stuck in Oklahoma and trying to get out. God has told me that I am making a different in the little things that I am do, like helping in the youth group, to living out my beliefs and faith at work which is hard sometime. The working world is something that you have to get use to for many different reason because you now can’t always choose the people that you around all day and when they beliefs our different, when you’re in school especially small Christian university your use to be around people that think and believe the same thing as you.
One of topic at camp was about being too comfortable in your life and I found that interesting because I am not comfort with my life I am always looking for change. I felt that God was telling me that I need to be comfort and stay in Oklahoma. I think that going to take some getting used to for many different reasons. I have always loved to travel and always making plans to go places. Some of them have not always worked out for me but ones that always do are going on mission trips. This is good and bad because I get to travel go to places that I wouldn’t have imaged going but it really scares me because it puts me out of my comfort zone in the fact that my reason for going is to tell people about Jesus. That something I struggle with sharing my faith. I know what I believe and why but it really difficult for me to share with others. I worry about saying the right thing and that it makes sense. Plus put me in front of group of people and that just the worse for me I get really nervous and feel like I just rambling. Last year when God told me to go to Romania on mission trip I tried to ignore him so I won’t have to go because it scared me so much having to share my faith, well God wouldn’t let it stop me and he made sure that I went. I am glad that I did because it was a learning experience for me plus draw me close to him with having to rely on God but the one thing that he taught me was I can share my faith and talk in front of people I might not like it that much but he can still use me. I also felt that at camp he was telling me he going to use my fears of speaking in front of crowds which is scary but when you are giving your life to Christ he going to use your insecurity for his good. God works all things for his good.
I am trying to trust God that, what I did was right thing quitting my job in all; I must admit that I might have jumped the gun a little in what he had planned next for me. He going to use this opportunity to get me a job that I am resolved is where he wants me to be at this point in my life and that he will continue helping me in not wanting to change everything.
One of topic at camp was about being too comfortable in your life and I found that interesting because I am not comfort with my life I am always looking for change. I felt that God was telling me that I need to be comfort and stay in Oklahoma. I think that going to take some getting used to for many different reasons. I have always loved to travel and always making plans to go places. Some of them have not always worked out for me but ones that always do are going on mission trips. This is good and bad because I get to travel go to places that I wouldn’t have imaged going but it really scares me because it puts me out of my comfort zone in the fact that my reason for going is to tell people about Jesus. That something I struggle with sharing my faith. I know what I believe and why but it really difficult for me to share with others. I worry about saying the right thing and that it makes sense. Plus put me in front of group of people and that just the worse for me I get really nervous and feel like I just rambling. Last year when God told me to go to Romania on mission trip I tried to ignore him so I won’t have to go because it scared me so much having to share my faith, well God wouldn’t let it stop me and he made sure that I went. I am glad that I did because it was a learning experience for me plus draw me close to him with having to rely on God but the one thing that he taught me was I can share my faith and talk in front of people I might not like it that much but he can still use me. I also felt that at camp he was telling me he going to use my fears of speaking in front of crowds which is scary but when you are giving your life to Christ he going to use your insecurity for his good. God works all things for his good.
I am trying to trust God that, what I did was right thing quitting my job in all; I must admit that I might have jumped the gun a little in what he had planned next for me. He going to use this opportunity to get me a job that I am resolved is where he wants me to be at this point in my life and that he will continue helping me in not wanting to change everything.
