what do you thinks make people ambitious? what makes people want to be known? like if you hear there name you automatically associate them with some big accomplishment that they have done in their life. they have a passion for something and then go out there and figure out how to become famous in that area. there are many different types of this like making a historical find, becoming a CEO of company, being the president, the mayor of big city, caring for the poor and many more examples of ambitious people.

people that are ambitious i tend to think are people that had hard childhood and are trying to make a better life. they work really hard and have goals to make a name for themselves and so something great. i realize they are not only people that accomplish great things but you have to have some event in your life that makes you want to accomplish something amazing.

i struggle with finding something that i am ambitious about. i have no idea what to do with myself sometime. i have passion for some things but i don’t how to make my mark on world. i don’t want to become famous or leader of company. i just want to have a nice life were i am able to travel and live a comfortable life. my only real passion is to travel and see other countries just to experience them. the only one that would benefit on that is me. it a rather selves passion, it’s not like i was to change the world. i just want to see it.

i have pretty easy life. i have don't have tons of money but i away have gotten what i want/need or made due. i have been able to do traveling in the US. sometime i wish i had ambition of something that i wanted to accomplish to make my name known.

my obsession...

i am obsessed with twilight saga books. i can't put them done. i never thought that would happen. i didn't really want to read them at first, thinks i wouldn't really like them. because there about vampire and werewolves i like books about real life. i can't put the books down. i read the first two in one week and i have to go buy the other two today. so that i can read them this weekend. needless to say my parents aren't very happy because all i do is read and i don't really help much right know. i don't know what it is about them but i can't stop reading them. that's all i have done the last week is eat, sleep, work and read, every chance i get.

i think its kind of funny that i like them so much. for one thing they are for teenager, i am 25. also because everyone else in the world pretty much loves them. i usually a couple years behind on fads. it take me awhile to get use to them and actually like them. by that time they aren't as cool anymore. which is not a big deal because then its cheaper to buy/get. i can't wait for lunch today to go buy the next book. whats going to happen to bella and edward...

white trash...

usually for the forth of july we spend it in michigan but my year my cousin got married so we where there the week before and then left for minnesota to see grandma. its was not the same. in michigan my aunt and uncle live on the lake so we get to watch fireworks on the lake from a neighbor of there, its the best firework show around. not this year, i missed it and being with family.
this 4th of july i got the privilege of going to valleyfair which is an amusement parks in minnesota. my cousin work there so we got in for free. i recommend going to an amusement parks if you ever want to feel trashy. my goodness the things people wear. its one thing if you are small and wear short shorts but when you a big girl and you butt is hanging out, not attractive at all. boobs everywhere coming out. needless to say it was fun riding the ride but it was interesting to watch people and what they wore. how they could even think that what they were wearing looked good. gross...

boot camp...

jordan made it through boot camp and graduated. which is pretty good for him since his training instructed "TI" had it out for him since the beginning all because he wrote his family a letter describing her to us. she women, mexican and mean. she didn't like that so much so made his pay for his 8 weeks. for the record she is not mexican apparently but looking at her you would know that. she is really short like 5'0 where jordan is 6'8 and smiles to much. he learned to not talk and made it through didn't get recycled

watching him march was really cool. he had to be so serious and in sync with his squad they did a really good job. he graduated to an airman. we are so proud of him. we mainly had to stay on base for our free time with him and all he wanted to do was eat and see the base since he had only been allowed on like two streets. ones they had to practice marching on.

a couple days before we came he received a note that he had oral surg. he was thinking it for his wisdom teeth since he never had his pulled but wrong. during his medical exam they had found a growth on his jaw bone. he was to have surg for it. they decided to wait until after grad and to talk to mom and dad about it. he did have the surg tuesday and he is recovering and doing well. mom and dad stayed long to make sure he was in and take care of him. we should find out soon what the growth is hopefully nothing serious. he is missing mom because they don't take care as good as her.

pepe le pew...

my pepe which is my puppy got to go to work with me last week. he the cutest little thing. i mean that because i dint like animals but i like my pepe. he had to come because he was going to get his shots after work. i was going to leave him in the car for day. it was cool raining day and he would have been fine in the car but he only 4 months old and not use to being alone all day. he usually has izzy and annabell to play with.

i was a work for an hour and said something about having my puppy in the car. the nurse said that i should bring him into her office. so i went to get him and he was never happier to have seen me. mind you it had been raining and he was in the car and not enjoying it at all. he was more then happy to go inside with me. i couldn't let my boss or the head boss know that he was inside or i would get in trouble.

he was not going to stay in the office unless i was there. he would start whining if he couldn't see me. so he sat under my desk all day. he was very good boy. he didn't make a sound unless i wasn't sit there. i had to go bathroom once and he howled really loud. all was good except my boss came by couple of times that day so we had to to be careful. it was funny everyone would get scared afraid he would starting whining. he didn't. i made it out with out anyone really knowing he was there.

i get an hour for lunch and was i was praying it would not be raining so we could play and get rid of some energy. so he would sleep the afternoon away. at my office we have a big pond in the back. it has a path that you can walk or run. we were on your second time around the farthest you could be from the car and it starts pouring on us. we had to run back and we were soaked. i pretty much felt like to smelled like a wet dog all afternoon. good fun bring you dog to work on a raining day.

off to get his shots and i was going to put him on the scale to see how much he weighted and he started freaking out and peeing everwhere. getting me all wet. he didn't want to be set on the ground. but other then that he didn't even realize that he had a shot. he justed wonders why i made him come with me all day. i also blame the outburst on a big dog that was close by on the floor. he doesn't like big dogs. they scare him since he only 5.5 pds.

leaving...

my baby brother is leaving to join the air force. i am really going to miss him. i hope that its everything he hopes it will be. he going to become a firefighter. he will be gone for 4 years and hopes to be station in europe some where.

i am really excited for him but its weird. i can leave or move away for a year and its not that big of deal. since moving back home and its just the 2 of us at home with mom and dad. i am really going to miss him. he who i spend most of my time with these days. he leaving me monday for about 4 years. the sad thing is i hope that i can go visit after he done with basic but i have a job and not aloud to take vacation until 6 months which is june. i don't know when i will see him again.

excercising...

i love it but hate it. it seems no matter how long i try i always end up getting up at 5am. i really hate it with a deep passion. before it was because i had to be at work by 6am. now its so that i will work out. i thought that when i movd home i will go at night after i get off work but that doesn't happen. so 5am it is when dad come to get me up. it make it alot easlier having someone get up and making sure that you go.

you kind of get use to get up at 5 but not really. i do have a little motiovation to get up every morning. money. my work is doing the biggest loser and whoever wins get $760. its for 3 months and we have to weight every month. i am excited to see if i can do it.

its official...

i have my first job since graduating from college almost 2 years ago. i am the newest member at urological specialists. i can go to the doctor and dentist. very exciting since it been awhile. i am ready to get my teeth clean. i get to answer the phone all days and hear about things i don't really care to hear. it does make for great entertainment because you just never know what people will say.

my first day of officially being hired and i didn't feel good at all. second day i couldn't even make it in because of the weather. the road were just to icy to make it in. hopefully tomorrow will be better and i can make it in. doesn't look good if they hire me and i don't show up the next day.

now i have to get use to talking about my dogs all day. how amazing they are. hearing about janie all the time and her wonderful life. which is so not true but anytime anyone says something she has a story about herself even if it has nothing to do with what we are talking about. judy is the other lady that i work with at the front desk. she nice and knows alot since she has worked here for 30 years. nice when i have a question.

its also bitter sweet. glad to finally have a job but i still have no idea what i am doing next. really no plans but paying my loans back. weird to think.

sunday mornings..

in church sunday morning there is this old man at church that has been coming for about 3 months now who sits in front of us. he has to be about 90 years old. he really cute. he might cut his own hair because in the back their are chucks taking out in different places. the sides are shaved just right around the ears for his glasses.

we have alot of older people in our church but why i like to watch this old man is the way he interacts with children. he aways has quarter in his pocket to give the little children. when he gives them the quarter he tells them "i am not that rich but here's a quarter." a couple of weeks ago he gave a little boy a small bag of skittles. the little kids don't really know how to react. they are not use to getting money from strangers so they never know if they should take it or not. once their parents tell them its alright they take the money.

i am not sure what it is but he aways draws my brothers and my attention. he just a really sweet old man who's wife has gone on before him and all he has left is going to church on sunday and wednesday.

New years...

i spend new years in new york city. it was freezing but lots of fun standing for 5 hours packed around people that you could barely move. waiting for the ball to drop and the crowd to shout happy new years. i glad that i got to experience it but i will be fine never to do that again. new york is definitely stepping up security because everywhere we went we had to go through metal detectors. getting to time square we were metal detected twice and no backpacks.

finally getting to see the statue of liberty, ellis island, ice skating in central park and going up in empire state building was really exciting. i have been to new york before but didn't get to do these things. it was fun getting to hangout with friends.

i love to flying but taking off and landing are my favorite and having a window sit is awesome. i love looking out i am like a kid in the candy store i just stare out the window trying to figure out what city or town we are flying over. on my flight to new york i was sitting by this man and his son was behind him. when the plane was getting ready to taking off he throw his hand up to hold his dad's hand so he would be safe. it was really cute.