leaving...

my baby brother is leaving to join the air force. i am really going to miss him. i hope that its everything he hopes it will be. he going to become a firefighter. he will be gone for 4 years and hopes to be station in europe some where.

i am really excited for him but its weird. i can leave or move away for a year and its not that big of deal. since moving back home and its just the 2 of us at home with mom and dad. i am really going to miss him. he who i spend most of my time with these days. he leaving me monday for about 4 years. the sad thing is i hope that i can go visit after he done with basic but i have a job and not aloud to take vacation until 6 months which is june. i don't know when i will see him again.

excercising...

i love it but hate it. it seems no matter how long i try i always end up getting up at 5am. i really hate it with a deep passion. before it was because i had to be at work by 6am. now its so that i will work out. i thought that when i movd home i will go at night after i get off work but that doesn't happen. so 5am it is when dad come to get me up. it make it alot easlier having someone get up and making sure that you go.

you kind of get use to get up at 5 but not really. i do have a little motiovation to get up every morning. money. my work is doing the biggest loser and whoever wins get $760. its for 3 months and we have to weight every month. i am excited to see if i can do it.

its official...

i have my first job since graduating from college almost 2 years ago. i am the newest member at urological specialists. i can go to the doctor and dentist. very exciting since it been awhile. i am ready to get my teeth clean. i get to answer the phone all days and hear about things i don't really care to hear. it does make for great entertainment because you just never know what people will say.

my first day of officially being hired and i didn't feel good at all. second day i couldn't even make it in because of the weather. the road were just to icy to make it in. hopefully tomorrow will be better and i can make it in. doesn't look good if they hire me and i don't show up the next day.

now i have to get use to talking about my dogs all day. how amazing they are. hearing about janie all the time and her wonderful life. which is so not true but anytime anyone says something she has a story about herself even if it has nothing to do with what we are talking about. judy is the other lady that i work with at the front desk. she nice and knows alot since she has worked here for 30 years. nice when i have a question.

its also bitter sweet. glad to finally have a job but i still have no idea what i am doing next. really no plans but paying my loans back. weird to think.

sunday mornings..

in church sunday morning there is this old man at church that has been coming for about 3 months now who sits in front of us. he has to be about 90 years old. he really cute. he might cut his own hair because in the back their are chucks taking out in different places. the sides are shaved just right around the ears for his glasses.

we have alot of older people in our church but why i like to watch this old man is the way he interacts with children. he aways has quarter in his pocket to give the little children. when he gives them the quarter he tells them "i am not that rich but here's a quarter." a couple of weeks ago he gave a little boy a small bag of skittles. the little kids don't really know how to react. they are not use to getting money from strangers so they never know if they should take it or not. once their parents tell them its alright they take the money.

i am not sure what it is but he aways draws my brothers and my attention. he just a really sweet old man who's wife has gone on before him and all he has left is going to church on sunday and wednesday.

New years...

i spend new years in new york city. it was freezing but lots of fun standing for 5 hours packed around people that you could barely move. waiting for the ball to drop and the crowd to shout happy new years. i glad that i got to experience it but i will be fine never to do that again. new york is definitely stepping up security because everywhere we went we had to go through metal detectors. getting to time square we were metal detected twice and no backpacks.

finally getting to see the statue of liberty, ellis island, ice skating in central park and going up in empire state building was really exciting. i have been to new york before but didn't get to do these things. it was fun getting to hangout with friends.

i love to flying but taking off and landing are my favorite and having a window sit is awesome. i love looking out i am like a kid in the candy store i just stare out the window trying to figure out what city or town we are flying over. on my flight to new york i was sitting by this man and his son was behind him. when the plane was getting ready to taking off he throw his hand up to hold his dad's hand so he would be safe. it was really cute.

friends...

i went to siloam this weekend. i love getting to see friends. hangout out at the cafe where you get to see people that you might not normal see. going to silaom just seems welcoming. staying up way to late exceptionally when you been up since 5am. getting to sleep away most of the morning. just sitting around and having good conversations. i do miss friends and being all together in one place.

my little adventure this weekend was i was getting ready to leave to come home when i realized that my keys were in my purse in my locked car. i have never locked myself out of the my car before. natalie and i went to check and make sure all doors where locked for sure. of course they were. i thought that we could break into my car because the window don't go in to the door. the glass in the top of the door. so we just pulled the glass back stuck a hanger down there and open the door. we did that all in about 10 mins. i would that was pretty fast and saved myself money not having to call a locksmith.

one more thing i just want to let you guys know that we have such a faithful God. i might not know what i am going to be doing with my life but i do know that God is always right beside me helping me find the way. he has away proved away when i want things to happen or need something. this weekend while driving to and from siloam i was remind of this by something really small. my speedometer don't work in my car most of the time. which never works very often this days. which is not good but if you go with the traffic in town your pretty much fine. its a little hard when you are driving on the highway and theirs no other cars around. the 2 times that i have been to siloam my speedometer has work the whole way. i don't know if you realize how amazing that is. every time i go i say a quick pray that it would work and it does. it brings to mind that scripture that talks about "how God is faithful in the little things and how much more he will be the big things." i continue to wait and see what God has in store for my life.

Holidays...

i just love the holidays. getting to decorate the house for christmas after thanksgiving is my favorite. this year i even get a little tree upstairs, which is nice because i didn't even get to have tree last year living in chicago.

i really need it to snow then it would really feel like christmas. i will have to wait until we go to minnesota probably but we will see because we might get some monday. i love the smell of the cookies cooking and fire in the fireplace. just the warmth of being home because last year i didn't get to be here. it just didn't feel like christmas as much.

tonight i had friends over and cooked them my favorite meal which was really fun. i miss thursday night dinner and monday night tea. we did both tonight and it was really fun. i think i should start doing it more often.

i love being home...